I haven’t written much in this blog lately. I’d like to say it’s because I’ve been busy and because I want to save my writing for publication, but while both of those things are true enough, they aren’t exactly valid excuses. If something is important enough to you, you make time for it.
Most places won’t accept writing that’s been published on your blog, but since nothing I write is getting accepted for publication anyway, I might as well just write on my blog (actually, the one piece of mine that did get accepted for publication, was a piece that had been published on my blog before.)
I feel like I’ve gotten a lot of rejections, but I actually haven’t gotten that many, because I haven’t made that many submissions, at least not compared to the amount of submissions most “serious” writers make. I spend more time searching places to submit to than writing things to be submitted. Obviously rejection sucks, but I know that even the best writers can expect to get a lot of rejections. There’s a social media movement where writers make it a goal to get 100 rejections in a year, because if you’re getting that many rejections, that means you’re making a lot of submissions.
I really want a career as a writer, but apparently I lack the drive, dedication, work ethic, time management skills, etc, to make that happen. I was enrolled in an online professional writing certificate program, and I enjoyed it, but I dropped out of it because I was having trouble keeping up with the assignments. I dropped out of online certificate programs in editing and child life for the same reason, so obviously writing is not the only area of my life where I lack drive and dedication.
I realize that no matter how much drive and dedication you have, establishing a career in writing is very difficult, especially in my preferred genre, creative nonfiction. I’ve tried my hand at other types of writing, but the problem is that while I’ve always had the ability to write well, I’ve never had the ability to write quickly, and the kind of writing that can actually make you money, tends to require a certain degree of speed. I have blog pieces that I’ve been intending to write/publish for years, but still haven’t gotten around to finishing or even starting. They’re “old news ” by now but I’d like to publish them anyway. Creative nonfiction tends to be a bit more forgiving in that regard.
If I can’t have a career as a writer, at the very least I want writing to be a hobby that I partake in on a regular basis and occasionally make money off of. I imagine this commitment I’m intending to make to writing more will work out about as well as my previous commitments, but the first step to fixing a problem is admitting that you have one. Whether the bigger problem is that I don’t write enough, or that I want to be a writer in the first place, I’m not sure.