Although I had been closer to Karen than I had been to Weasel, being blocked by Weasel hurt more. Karen had given me an explanation for why she had blocked me and I had come to believe that she had both of our best interests at heart. Weasel had blocked me with no explanation. I was left to speculate as to why she had done that and I did not believe her intentions were in any way noble.

I kept thinking about how she had consoled me when Karen had blocked me. I thought about how I had said to her “You aren’t going to block me, are you?” and she had replied to me “No, Kira I would never do that. I am your friend always and forever.” Now I felt like an idiot for believing her.

When I told Bernadette what Weasel had done she said “I’m not really surprised. I wouldn’t have expected her to remain loyal for very long.  She flip-flopped on me a few times. She’s a fair weather friend.”

A few hours later Bernadette got the following e-mail from a ninja mod:

“This is a notification that you are henceforth banned from the forum for your creepy, and frankly unhealthy obsession with “outing” a supposed faker and the lengths to which you have gone to dig up proof of faking.

We have examined your proof and found it to be wanting and you are no longer welcome in the community.”

At that point I put two and two together and realized what had happened. Weasel had taken the information I had confided in her as a friend and shared it with the moderators in an effort to get Bernadette in trouble, stir up drama and make herself look good on the forum.  Those questions she had asked me about Bernadette had not been friendly, innocent questions. They had been leading questions meant to get me to spill information that she could use against me and my friend. And I had been dumb enough to fall for it.

The truth was that if anyone had a creepy, unhealthy obsession with outing a supposed faker, it was me, not Bernadette. I had suggested  to her that since those assholes on the forum wanted to accuse me of lying about my life with no evidence to back it up, despite all their efforts to dig for it, we should go back and share the evidence we had found that proved Marcia was a liar. Bernadette had replied that that would be pointless, as the people on the forum would just complain about how creepy and trollish we were and then go back to starting cat threads. They weren’t worth our time.

Neither of us cared that Bernadette had been banned because she hadn’t planned on returning to the forum anyway but boy did Weasel’s betrayal sting. It stung even more than all the nasty things that had been said about me on the forum. At least those people had been upfront about the fact that they did not like me and that they did not care if they hurt my feelings.

Weasel,  on the other hand had pretended to be my friend and to be concerned about me. She had reached out to me at a time when she knew I was emotionally vulnerable and encouraged me to confide in her. Then she had taken what I had confided in her and used it to stab me in the back. She knew full well how hurt I would be at being blocked by her but she did it anyway because tattling on another friend of mine for her own personal gain and pettiness was more important than my feelings or emotional well being.

At that point the emotional progress I had made since being banned from the board started unraveling. My acceptance of the situation had been based on the premise that I still had friends from the board that I could socialize with online. Now I was seeing that those friends could not be trusted and could slip away from me at any time. I felt completely and utterly alone. I was slipping in to a pit of despair.

6 thoughts on “When Online is Out of Line: The Sting of Betrayal

  1. Oh man… I had a feeling about that. Dang! That’s seriously rude, pretending to be a friend just to fish for information. It’s middle school behavior at it’s worst. I’m worried about what happens next…
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      1. Seriously! If I didn’t know this was all in the past I definitely wouldn’t be treating it like a soap opera. I think it’s awesome that you can have fun with what was obviously a very painful experience.

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    1. I’m not going to believe anything you say because you’ve proven yourself to be untrustworthy. You’re not going to convince me or anyone else that what you did to me was okay by continuing to comment on this blog. You’re only making yourself look worse. Please just go away.

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  2. It’s so amazing that I found this now because I too am going through the betrayal of an online friend. We’d been friends for five years, and confided everything, supported each other through depression, anxiety, and just bad times. Then during an argument on really something fairly minor she had blown up, she blocked me. When I asked her why in an email, she gave me her own scathing account. That the last five years had been about my problems. That I never cared about her. That now she was hanging out with happy, positive people that cared (like her?) Yeah it knocked the wind out of me, and it still smarts.

    Long way of saying I absolutely understand. I decided I’d had my blog long enough, and even switched to a new one recently, though the old one is still up. I invited any who wanted to follow. It’s cathartic in a way. Good luck to you.

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